Hey everybody. I do not actually know the best way to start this inquiry in one of the best ways, so I’ll simply begin with a brief description of myself. I’ve at all times been a reasonably religious and conscious particular person. I usually felt myself floating above many issues, feeling like I am some place else/on one other airplane of existence. I used to be very intuitive and I had quite a lot of precognitive goals. There have been factors in my life the place I felt form of inhuman, in a great way. I had a robust connection to this world, each seen and invisible elements of it. I used to be capable of set up deep connections with individuals and assist them cope with a number of issues simply. I used to be capable of create so much music and be actually inventive general. There have been instances after I felt like I’m utterly submerged on this greater state, there have been instances after I felt like I used to be simply dipping my toes in it, and all the things in between, however it was regular, since these items are inclined to fluctuate for me, and I suppose not solely me.
The issue is, for the final 12 months or so, I’ve been feeling like I actually misplaced my function, and and that greater state of being has left me and this a part of me was locked for some cause. I began to really feel like I’m continuously banging my head on a door, unable to get in. My creativity has virtually utterly disappeared and I barely really feel linked to something. I additionally discovered that I began feeling a lot, a lot much less emotion-wise. There have been no traumatic or huge occasions in my life that may change one thing about me so drastically. I can’t perceive the reason for this and I can’t get out of this empty state, regardless of common meditation and reflection. I can not seem to attain out and contact what I might name my greater essence, as a result of it simply feels prefer it’s not there anymore. Whereas I nonetheless have spontaneous bursts of this sense once more, it is rather short-lived and I can by no means maintain it. It simply serves as a reminder of what as soon as was. All the pieces simply feels clean, hole and uninteresting proper now. I do not suppose I’ve melancholy, since I contemplate myself a reasonably completely satisfied particular person and my life is kind of good on a cloth aspect of issues, however with this religious component of my life lacking, I’m beginning to really feel like I’ve misplaced my means, and this brings me nice discomfort, since dwelling with no sense of function feels extraordinarily like…nothing in any respect(that is one of the best ways I can escribe the sensation my present state of affairs provides me). So, has anybody confronted this earlier than? Are you able to give me some recommendation on what to do in such instances, or level me in a basic route? ,