My husband and I’ve been married for simply over a month and he stated one thing on our honeymoon I haven’t been capable of recover from.
I used to be sporting a bikini prime that was extra revealing than I usually would as we had been at an adults solely resort and I stated one thing like “wow my boobs truly look very nice, I’m feeling assured proper now” which is a giant deal as a result of I battle with an consuming dysfunction and discover it onerous to really feel assured about my physique more often than not. He checked out them and stated “yeah….what’s with all of the veins although?”
Instantly I felt self acutely aware and began to cry which is when he backtracked and apologized for hurting me, the best way he stated it, and so forth….I’m actually pale so I do know that I’ve extra seen veins on my breasts however it’s not one thing I ever was insecure about as a result of I believed it was regular, however the best way he stated it and the tone of his voice implied that it was bizarre and I’ve change into fixated on it.
Now each time I placed on a bra or a tank prime that exhibits cleavage it’s all I see. Each time we’ve intercourse I simply wish to flip the lights off or depart my shirt on as a result of I really feel like seeing them will flip him off or he’ll assume I’m much less attractive. He’s apologized a number of instances however I feel that is one thing I’ll all the time take into consideration each time I see myself within the mirror.
I’m not mad at him as a result of I do know he didn’t imply to harm me and he appears really remorseful. However I simply don’t imagine him when he says I’m attractive or he loves my boobs as a result of my thoughts goes again to that remark. Possibly it’s not a giant deal and I’m being dramatic however anybody who has struggled with physique picture points/consuming problems would perceive how badly a remark about your physique can harm you.
How can I transfer previous this and imagine him when he says he didn’t imply it?
TL;DR: husband made remark implying my veiny boobs had been bizarre and it’s onerous to be intimate or get it out of my thoughts now.