When God Says, “Wait.” – SpiritualDirection.com


It was virtually precisely one yr in the past once I cried out in prayer to God:  “I can’t do that anymore!”

I bear in mind I used to be sitting on the sting of the sofa, clutching the cushions.  Life felt so overwhelming and I had reached a bodily and emotional, and I suppose religious, breaking level.  I used to be pulled in many various instructions and discernment appeared futile.  Nothing was clear.  However one factor was for certain, issues needed to change.  The best way I noticed it, I needed to make some sweeping selections NOW about what to do and what to not do, or, because the hissing voices prompt: “You aren’t robust sufficient to proceed.”  “You received’t be capable to serve anybody.”  “You might be failing at every part.”  “This may’t go on.”  “It’s as much as you to alter it.”  “The whole lot is a catastrophe.”  “It received’t get higher until you act.”

And most telling, I see now, is the pressing and overwhelming sense that I wanted to make hurried and unconfirmed selections and I needed to make them straight away.   Quit writing.  Let another person lead the research group.  Name and inform them I can’t communicate on the occasion.

However virtually instantly, God had a solution.  And as with all youngster, it wasn’t one I used to be too focused on listening to.


Wait?  Wait?  Severely?  This was an excessive amount of to bear.  There was no finish in sight.  Certainly He can’t be critical.  What about “I can’t do that anymore” was He not getting?

However sure, He was.  As a result of that summer time turned out to be a protracted, lingering, consoling time, and whereas nothing was solved, nonetheless, I discovered myself sustained.  After which fall got here, and new alternatives opened up which I couldn’t have foreseen.  He had been getting issues prepared for me, and getting me prepared for them.  Stretching me, scraping me, emptying me of each little bit of my very own energy.  He loves us that method–as a result of that’s once we actually know that what we do isn’t of our personal accord.  I wanted to achieve the top of me, and the Lord knew it.  What I additionally wanted to know was that the oppressive emotions of failure and futility wouldn’t final endlessly.  There can be sunny days sprinkled in, numerous laughter, bits of brightness.

And guess what?  Most of it will come from the very issues I had been – tempted – to surrender.

God is merciful like that.  He actually, actually does break struggling into bite-sized items, even when it’s simply the reduction of tumbling into mattress after an terrible day.

St. Ignatius of Loyola, in his guidelines for discernment of spirits, emphasizes this actuality within the eighth rule.  “Let one who’s in desolation,” he writes, “work to be in persistence, and let him assume that he’ll quickly be consoled…”

In different phrases –  wait!

And keep in mind that God is aware of what He’s about, and His timeline at all times has eternity in thoughts.   Don’t rush into selections you’ll stay to remorse, or work your self right into a frenzy, or be plunged into despair pondering that your scenario won’t ever, ever enhance. We’ve got an enemy who’s banking on us doing precisely that.  I overheard a smart buddy lately counsel a struggling youthful girl, “Simply maintain tight, and know that the consolations will come once more.”

In “Setting the Captives Free,” Fr. Timothy Gallagher explains this because the “Regulation of Undulation,” a phrase coined by C.S. Lewis within the Screwtape Letters and “which expresses completely the presupposition that underlies rule 8.”  He continues, “Lewis writes of human individuals that ‘their nearest method to fidelity…is undulation–the repeated return to a degree from which they repeatedly fall again, a sequence of troughs and peaks.’”

That is true with every part in life, together with the religious realm.   In different phrases, ‘regular’ isn’t a relentless straight line, a gradual hum, a clean, degree highway.  ‘Regular’ is just like the undulating motion of waves, swelling, constructing, after which receding once more. We merely can’t count on it to be any totally different.

And if we will keep in mind that when the mendacity one on our left shoulder suggests, “this can by no means finish,” we will ship him packing.

“Subsequently, be steadfast in your resolutions.  Keep within the boat during which he has positioned you, and let the storm come.  Lengthy stay Jesus!  You’ll not perish.  He could sleep, however on the opportune time he’ll awaken to revive your calm.”

– St. Pio of Pietrelcina, quoted in “Setting the Captives Free” by Fr. Timothy Gallagher, O.M.V.

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