At a Loss For Words……..


As I sit right here at residence, staring at this laptop, I would like to whine and do&nbspthe “sing and dance” about how I want I could crawl beneath a rock and die. But I&nbspwon’t… but.

My bloodwork was provided to me by the radiology division for the duration of my scan, and I believed every thing looked actually excellent except one particular and it was one particular I do not try to remember seeing it just before. It was grossly out of variety. But, I remained optimistic that evening and was prepared for my scan outcomes the subsequent day. The clinical trial coordinator would not give me any clues what my outcomes have been and mentioned I would have to wait for the physician’s assistant that was coming in subsequent. SHE would not give me any clues and mentioned Dr. Meric wanted to go more than the scan outcomes with me. I knew at this point, it wasn’t excellent.

Dr. Meric mentioned though the liver was steady, I had some new nodes in the lining of the stomach. I also had a handful of two cm nodes by my ovary that they had been watching and in two months they are four cm. It is sufficient development to take me off the trial. She had a different trial but I would have to travel to Texas each week. NOT.&nbsp Then, Dr. Javle wanted to see me so we met with him. He desires to do Irinotecan along with Leukovoren and Xeloda. He desires to place a port in, and I would have a pump for two days though&nbspall 3 drugs&nbspare gradually released. Then, I would travel back to Effingham and have the fanny pack that holds the&nbspchemo removed. I would do this each two weeks. My loved ones is concerned with a port as that is what triggered all the blood clots more than five years ago. Jenn has a contact in to Dr. Goswami (my dr at St. Johns/Prairie Heart Institute&nbspin Springfield, Illinois who removed all the hundreds of clots final time) to see what he thinks. Dr. Dy believes we will be fine as lengthy as we retain a close eye on&nbspthe consistency of my blood.
I do not appear forward to chemo but these chemotherapy agents have worked in the previous so I really feel improved than getting into a trial once more. Along with the chemo, can come low white counts which would add the Neulasta shot. Kim, the nurse at Crossroads mentioned the side effects are not rather as undesirable considering that it is gradually released more than&nbsp48 hours alternatively of pushing the drugs into my method in a handful of hours.
I am not going to lie, when you get nodules (that they are quite positive are cancerous) in the peritoneal area, it is time to get out the gloves and give it my most effective shot.

I know this is a quite significant post, but it is quite significant suitable now. I’ve been in tight spots just before and have came out on best, I am not about to throw in the towel now!!&nbsp

A large thanks to David and Lynda Rands whom we stayed with in O’Fallon right after a delayed flight and a midnight arrival to their home. They are excellent hosts and even improved good friends!!

Thank you all for your prayers and God is with me. Often!&nbsp I am nonetheless right here…..there is a sharp curve ahead but I have taken a handful of of these in the previous and survived. So….keep tuned for the subsequent step in this land of Cancer at the Corcoran’s!



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