So how does this function?
As I’m having older, I’m beginning to turn out to be much more confused about what my greatest-case situation is.
As a lady that is.
Ok so I locate the enjoy of my life and settle down with them.
Perhaps bang out a couple of children.
Cool, so now I have a family members that cares about me.
Great so far.
But then more than time, who am I?
My physical attractiveness will get started to decline.
I’ll no longer really feel attractive.
More than time, my companion will possibly enjoy me to bits but will not locate me physically perfect.
And I’ll be conscious adequate to be capable to know that, even although he may possibly never ever inform me.
He’s wired to locate young girls appealing.
So what am I supposed to do then?
Distract myself with the children so I do not have to face the truth?
Or accept that my worth will alter?
That my most important qualities will go from stunning lady to other wholesome issues like mother, profession lady or (yelp) good character.
Or ought to I just cling to my youth desperately and hope I can hold on lengthy adequate for my self esteem to stay intact?
Appear, I’m not blind to my privilege.
I know some of my self esteem is tied to my appears.
I know I got fortunate to be regarded as appealing.
I also haven’t been delusional adequate to assume this would be adequate to get by forever.
So I’ve worked on other components of me – intelligence, humour and all that.
I’m not saying that I do not have worth outdoors of getting appealing.
I’m also not saying that I will not be capable to survive without having appears.
What I’m saying is – give me a minute to adjust to this notion.
I’m going to get much less appealing physically.
And my companion will possibly turn out to be much more appealing – appears-sensible, financially and otherwise.
So I’ll decline physically…
And he’ll be in his prime.
And as I get old I will just have to accept that.
I’ll have to attempt tougher to bring out my other qualities.
I’m not worried that I will not be great anyway.
I’m just feeling sorry for myself in this moment.
And do not I have a proper to do that?
I want to be like a good aged wine.
Not a spoiled grape rotting in the sun.
And I want to accept that my gender has no predisposition for the greater outcome.
So as my physique will gradually alter.
And I see the finish of my twenties staring me in the eye…
I want to spend tribute to all the girls who have weathered these adjustments and come out nonetheless getting stunning and sexual beings.
It requires strength I do not know I have.
I’ll locate out for certain.
But I see a lot of girls who come out desexualised.
Like they have no proper to be attractive any longer.
And I see a spark go out.
I hope this does not occur to me.
But I wanted to create this down now.
Prior to I got older.
And just before I became unattractive.
So I couldn’t be accused of getting ugly and bitter.
Mainly because I want to go into my future with eyes wide open.
Mainly because life can be unfair, no matter how tough I attempt.
And possibly that is ok – possibly not.