By Chandra Lynn Smith
I sat at my desk in January writing the weblog post and I shared a small about my existing project. Then the project was place on hold for a small whilst. What occurred? Life. This winter has been 1 of heartbreak and my private grief produced a writer’s block. Final Fall I would have told you that even in complicated instances nothing at all blocked my writing, that I really create extra in the course of my struggles. But I had not lost a valuable grandchild. And, by the twelfth of February this year I had lost two valuable grandchildren.
Progress on that manuscript halted. I did a lot of writing in my journal and speaking to, yelling at, turning from, and operating back to God. I began writing scenes, the angry scenes or the sad ones or even the frightening ones. I wrote them in initial individual and poured my feelings, feelings, and thoughts into them. There is some fantastic stuff there and a lot of not-so-fantastic stuff. I will have to ‘mine’ these scenes and place them into third individual prior to putting them inside the manuscript. There undoubtedly was some catharsis in the writing. But I nonetheless faced a extremely true block.
Years ago in a class at the Higher Philadelphia Christian Writer’s Conference I discovered about writing by means of deep feelings and trauma. The instructor taught us how to use our life scenarios and feelings in our characters’ lives. But she also cautioned against attempting to do so whilst the heartache, emotional or physical trauma was fresh.
Whilst nothing at all about my characters’ story associated to my existing circumstance, my heart was projecting, which produced the writer’s block. I place the manuscript aside for a time and mainly because, as Allen Arnold teaches, I am writing with God, I asked Him to inform me what to operate on. I pulled out a completed but not-but-published manuscript and started operating on its rewrite.
And here’s why writing with God is so remarkable. I discovered 1 sentence final evening, just 1 sentence I wrote a couple of years ago that spoke to my mourning heart. My character, MaryRose Elliott, spoke these words in her prayer time “Joy in spite of heartbreak and sorrow. I want that. I want to discover the joy no matter what occurs.”
Writing by means of grief and trauma no matter whether emotional or physical is complicated, heart wrenching, and healing. I’ve discovered to not be afraid of this emotional, even when it is raw grief. Whilst these words may possibly not ever discover their way into a manuscript the healing only God can give will operate by means of your characters and hence your readers—even when the reader it aids is oneself.
Chandra Lynn Smith writes modern fiction filled with inspiration, intrigue, romance, and dogs. Her most current novella, Turtle Box Memories, won the 2015 Genesis Award in the novella category. Her initial book, The Light Holding Her is 1 of seven novellas by seven authors in Coming Property: A Tiny Residence Collection. Chandra’s profession as a Certified Expert Dog Trainer delivers her with a assortment of canine characters and difficult scenarios. She and her husband reside on a smaller farm in South Central Pennsylvania. They are proud parents of 4 sons and grandparents to 3, 1 living and two in heaven with God. Their property is usually filled with their two dogs, all 4 sons, wives, fiancés, granddaughter, close friends, and as lots of as nine “grand dogs.” You can discover her at www.amazon.com/author/chandralynnsmith or www.chandralynnsmith.blogspot.com