Due to the fact I began my senior year with a weblog post, now it only appears fitting that I finish it with a single. Hopefully this post does not turn out to be also sappy, but I will not make any guarantee considering that I am a deeply emotional particular person. xD
dear senior year,
You have ultimately come to an finish. Twelve years of college, numerous hours, two thousand, a single hundred, and sixty days in all… completed. Completed. I will not be facing the textbooks in the fall soon after a summer time break. I will not sit cross-legged on my grey folding chair any longer, with a blanket wrapped about me like a burrito. I will not have to grit my teeth by means of frustrating battles with stubborn math issues. (<<< hallelujah to the final a single!)
I am completed, and for some explanation that is a terrifying believed.
I’ve explained this just before, but college and I have never ever been the very best of pals. I am an impatient, hands on form of particular person, and the prospect of sitting at a desk all morning to feel by means of tough ideas till my head hurts? … eh, I will pass. I’ve never ever liked college, but now that I am completed, I understand how comforting college was. (never ever dreamed of writing that sentence, ha!)
I explored the concept of comfort + college a small bit in my final senior post, but it is grow to be extra evident now that I’ve graduated. When in college, my goal/activity was set out for me. I woke up every single morning, and I did not want to feel about vehicles and jobs and funds and ~adult responsibilities~.
I really feel a bit like Bilbo Baggins. I was in the routine of the life that I was accustomed to, living comfortably in my Bag Finish property, consuming lots of pizza and other superior meals. But then I opened the door for the dwarves, and now I am acquiring dragged on this new and stretching journey in life. (BOOM! ADULTHOOD! OFF ON AN ADVENTURE YOU GO!)
(as I reread that analogy it is a fairly awful a single and is not pretty related to my scenario, but I will take any chance to get in touch with myself Bilbo Baggins and pretend to be a hobbit thank you pretty substantially.)
And when the “congratulations” take location, the inevitable query strikes: “So… what are you going to do with your life?” [psst, go read nadine’s wonderful post about this dreaded question]
Oh. Yay. *existential screaming*
Although I make enjoyable of the query, I do have an understanding of. I am a naturally curious particular person and would want to know my Best Secret Plans if I have been them. But the trouble is that I am me and I nevertheless ask myself every day what it is that I am going to do with my life. 😛
However, I never have any Best Secret Fascinating Plans. I am not going to college mainly because a) I have no concept what I’d go for, and b) I never want to go just to go and invest all that time and funds.
So as an alternative, for now, I am going to maintain operating at Starbucks (yay for no cost caffeine! (<< thank goodness for spell verify mainly because I can not spell “caffeine” for the life of me). I am going to search for a second job and hopefully settle into a routine that I delight in.
I may well not have as substantially time to create, but you greater think that I will invest the spare moments I have chipping away at my novels, taking these child measures toward publication. Writing is a thing that I never feel I can ever give up, no matter how insane and chaotic life gets.
We’ll see exactly where this crazy journey of life requires me. As intimidating as it can be, I am excited to see what God has in retailer for me. 😀
Properly, these are my scattered senior updates! A lot of my blogging/writing pals are going by means of the similar life modifications of becoming adults, graduating, and obtaining alter fly at them, so it is comforting to know that I am not the only a single. We can all freak out collectively! 😛
Have a amazing weekend. <3
are you experiencing alter? like it? hate it?