We have been are all experiencing a week from what seemed like Satan.
A week complete of intense strain, intense studying, intense organizing, and a week with intense demand. We all are unsure if we can make it to Friday for the reason that of all the items taking place about us and inside of us nonetheless there I stand, in a space complete of college students from Berry and Shorter. I stand tall in a time of worship, escaping from the madness that my life is presently. We are all wholly trusting in the Lord to have His will in the midst of the crazy sequences of events.
I can hear only 1 factor: the voices of college students singing at the leading of their lungs.
I can nonetheless hear our voices ringing in my ears, singing ever so loudly “you are very good, very good, oh you are very good, very good, oh. Yes! You are very good, very good, oh!”
I sing this till I think it. I was not going to cease singing till I was sold that God is genuinely very good.
United we stand and united we sing. We sing united for the reason that we know that God walks with us by way of it all.
So, ideal now you are in all probability pondering two items.
Believed quantity 1 becoming: “wow, Cassidy! You certainly went MIA.”
You are most surely ideal. In all my time writing and ministering to you, I really feel you may possibly have found 1 factor about me and it is this: I uncover writing is not the easiest factor. I have a pattern of writing and then not writing for a although, but I have come to uncover that it is okay for the reason that God speaks to me when He desires to. In some cases, it requires a although for Him to push me into a discovery or reveal anything to me. I have had concepts come to thoughts, but I have not pursued writing about them, for the reason that every little thing is moving so speedily about me. I merely haven’t had time to believe or to breathe when I have had time, I opt for to rest in the Lord by way of journaling or reading the Bible desiring for rest in the insanity of my life has been anything I am striving for.
Believed quantity two for some of you may possibly be: “how is college going? How is life at Berry?”
All I can say to that query is a uncomplicated “wow.”
I have so numerous answers for that query that differ in complexity, opinions, discoveries, and challenges. I can not answer that query all in 1 post, for the reason that my feelings and thoughts about becoming a college freshman are so complicated. Getting a college freshman is a improvement. This practical experience is a improvement by way of time, by way of years, by way of weeks, and by way of days. I program to share this improvement with you all through my years right here at Berry College and beyond.
For now, I will say that the initial month of freshman year has been a rollercoaster, but in spite of every little thing taking place I am so in like with this adventure I am in awe of every little thing the Lord is teaching me and every little thing I am understanding about myself. I am starting to learn what I am genuinely passionate about and how God will use my passions for His goal I can not wait to watch my life continue to unfold right here and share these stories with all of you.
And speaking of stories, I’ve lastly got 1 to inform you.
It is the story of God’s disposition.
Writing this weblog is a deep and accurate passion of mine I like absolutely nothing additional than to create these posts, sharing my words, my thoughts, my observations, and my lessons. This is a ministry Steven and I have constructed collectively from the ground, up. Living in Him Alone is a spot for each of us to use our spiritual gifts. His gifts are establishing and seeing locations for improvement and mine, utilizing my words to speak the Gospel to other folks. We perform collectively and hope that we can alter lives, 1 post at a time. I like writing nonetheless, occasionally although it comes organic to me, it also does not. In some cases, I uncover it to be a quite challenging factor for me to create. My thoughts gets clouded with so numerous adverse thoughts. I really feel like I do not have sufficient words to speak I get so overwhelmed and query if I am truly communicating with all of you what God desires me to communicate. In some cases, I really feel as although God’s words are not coming out of my mouth, but rather His personal. My head starts to believe that I am not carrying out God’s will by writing this weblog and then I just fall down a spiral of aggravation and anxiousness and disappointment.
This occurred to me regularly all through my absence. I attempted to open up Google Docs and start writing on any subject, but my head got also clouded. I was so focused on “what if I am not speaking God’s words” that I couldn’t even hear God. Then, I would get angry with God for the inability to hear Him speaking to me. The lines have been crossed and I was unable to hear something. I felt that as an alternative of assisting me along the way, God was in my way. It felt as although He wasn’t assisting me along and He wasn’t speaking by way of me.
In quick, I was also hyperfocused on the incorrect factor.
I attempted to create a handful of Saturdays prior to the dwelling football game and I couldn’t manage it.
I was having also frustrated and also angry with God that I had to step away.
When stepping away, I discovered myself caught in a God moment.
It looked like this…
Attempting to combat the aggravation was failing. I was texting Steven searching for some consolation he was generating very good points, but he wasn’t resolving the aggravation and adverse thoughts weren’t going away. I was looking for God in the middle of this disaster.
It was windy. I stepped outdoors from Mary Hall and felt the gentle breeze blow by way of my hair, tickling my face.
It was sprinkling. I felt the substantial droplets of water cool my hot skin and trickle down my skin.
The location of Valhalla (the football stadium) was clear in my thoughts and my feet have been taking me there. Hillsong United was playing by way of my earbuds, for the reason that what else would I be listening to? And I was lifting up my anxieties to God, praying that He would take these adverse feelings away I was praying for Him to replace these thoughts with words, His words that would help me to create this post. Even though the wind blew by way of my hair and raindrops evaporated of my skin I kept surrendering, singing the lyrics “it tends to make no sense, but this is grace. And I know you are with me in this spot.” In this moment, I had an intense memory, a God breathed recollection. Due to the fact the starting of July, Steven and I have been studying Romans as often as feasible.
Mini rave: Apostle Paul was honestly a genius in my thoughts. He often had awesome concepts he often had just the ideal words to speak and he often knew what to say for the reason that he trusted the Lord would present for him. He knew the Lord would often safeguard him and see him by way of all the troubles. I believe his reliance and faith in the Lord is anything stunning and admirable for the reason that he just knew. He obtained peace and knew the Lord was generating his paths straight. Gosh, he was a faith genius, and we genuinely can reside by these words he writes to us. 10/10 would advise the books in the Bible that he wrote.
Anyway, we have been actively reading Romans collectively. It is been challenging to do this everyday as our lives have gotten crazy with college, but it is been so rewarding when we are in a position to crack open the word collectively.
There are two verses from Romans that weigh so heavy on my heart lately and I have been praying more than them for numerous causes, asking the Lord to speak to me by way of them.
So, without the need of additional ado right here is the initial verse I have actually been meditating more than.
And Israel, who seemed so interested in reading and speaking about what God was carrying out, missed it. How could they miss it? Mainly because as an alternative of trusting God, they took more than. They have been absorbed in what they themselves have been carrying out. They have been so absorbed in their “God projects” that they didn’t notice God ideal in front of them, like a massive rock in the middle of the road. And so they stumbled into him and went sprawling. Isaiah (once more!) offers us the metaphor for pulling this collectively: Cautious! I’ve place a massive stone on the road to Mount Zion, a stone you cannot get about. But the stone is me! If you are searching for me, you will uncover me on the way, not in the way.
Romans 9:27-33 MSG
And then Paul drops the Mic, walking off stage he does not will need to say something additional.
He just leaves us with our mouths open to catch flies for the reason that the shock and truth in these words is utterly genuine.
I imply, people today! Listen up! I ask you to reflect and take it seriously.
How numerous instances have we gotten in our personal way?
Truly believe about this.
How numerous instances have you wanted that partnership, that promotion, that grade, that new job, that new internship, that new chance, that new leadership position, that opportunity, or what ever specific factor in your life?
I bet you that this has occurred on additional than 1 occasion and on 1 or additional of these occasions, you have stood in your personal way.
How do we stand in our personal way precisely?
Personally, I believe we commonly stand in our personal way in 4 particular scenarios: when we listen to our worry voices, when we make our personal chaos, when we get inside our personal heads, and when we turn out to be handle freaks. All of these scenarios have 1 typical thread: we think we can manage them on our personal. This is malpractice and we should really cease it right away.
Listening to Worry
Listening to your worry voice is in the end 1 of the greatest items I uncover people today of faith struggle with. It is been stated that listening to your worry voice is listening to the lies of Satan attempting who is attempting to pull you away from the Lord. The worry voices strip you of self-assurance, generating you believe you are not in a position to do the factor you are so referred to as to do by the Lord. Possibly this worry voice is fearing failure, fearing rejection, fearing loss, fearing what other people today believe, or fearing letting oneself down.
What ever it may possibly be I uncover that when we listen to the worry voice inside of us, we stand in our personal way. We can think we are not going to get that factor we so need, which creates a layer of worry. When we worry, we maintain God out of the image, for the reason that we believe we can manage these fears on our personal, which hinders us from becoming thriving. How does this make sense?
Generating our personal chaos is anything I really feel like we are specialists in. I do not know why we are wired to more than complicate and more than believe the majority of items, but we just are. When we make our personal chaos, we overwhelm ourselves to a level that is unmanageable which creates strain, tension, anxiousness, and distrust. This leads to us becoming so stressed out that we miss the point, once more top us to stand in our personal way, and top us astray from God.
Inside the Thoughts
I’m an specialist at having inside my personal head, which has been anything I’m presently functioning to overcome. I am not a adverse particular person nonetheless the start out of this year has set some tiny doubts and adverse thoughts into my thoughts. I get stuck inside my personal thoughts and convince myself that I’m incapable of reaching what I want. Then I start out to envision myself believing these items and it is scary. I stand in my personal way when I start out to get inside my personal head and concentrate on my shortcomings rather than my strengths. Once more, this keeps us from focusing on who God says our identity is and exactly where it is discovered, which is in Him.
We all want to be in handle more than each and every small factor. We want items to perform out the way we program them and the way we want them to occur. We want every little thing to go our way all the time. I wrote a post about this a handful of months ago click right here to study it. I am going to maintain this quick by saying, we stand in our personal methods when we believe we personal the spot.
A truth: God is in charge.
We are not and when we attempt to be, we stand in our personal way, losing sight of the truth that God is sovereign more than each and every step.
How numerous instances have we fallen victim to our situations, stood in our personal way, and wondered why God wasn’t present on the scene?
So numerous instances.
Let’s talk about this typical thread among all of these scenarios, shall we?
In each and every predicament, the typical thread that is sown in is a lack of trust in the Lord, a lack of eyes for His perform, and a lack of faith.
“Okay, so?” is what you are in all probability pondering. “Why does this have something to do with my faith?”
Nicely, let’s speak about it.
We can turn out to be so absorbed in what we think is ideal, our “God projects” as Paul referred to as them, that we miss God ideal in front of our noses!
We believe we are carrying out the Lord’s will when we are not.
We are not carrying out the Lord’s will for the reason that our lives are not utterly surrendered to Him we say we want Him to perform His will in our lives, but when it comes time for Him to do so, we get shy. We get frustrated that our plans and His plans are not the similar and so we make a decision that God is in our way.
When we make a decision God is standing in our way from reaching our greatest ambitions, desires, and plans, anything occurs in exchange.
We maintain God out of the image we stand completely in God’s way, cutting Him from functioning His will in our hearts.
This is such an situation!
Haven’t we established to ourselves by now that we cannot do something apart from the Lord?
So, why do we even attempt?
It is senseless.
I’ve been carrying out this lately with very a handful of items, but mostly with my weblog posts.
I would sit down to create and be utterly frustrated and irritated and speechless.
I would get so frustrated with God that He wasn’t providing me the words to speak.
I felt like he was entirely in my way.
I couldn’t uncover Him exactly where I was walking. He was distant and I felt like He couldn’t possibly be discovered on the path I was on. I got so caught up in the truth that I had to create this post and it has to be best.
We get so caught up in the concept that it has to be our personal perform, our personal talents, our personal accomplishments, our personal plans, our personal desires, our personal every little thing, that we reduce God out completely, when He should really be initial.
Paul drops the mic once more when he says this in Romans.
You are not carrying out something you are merely calling out to God, trusting him to do it for you.
Romans 10:10 (MSG)
And that is the truth of truths, people today and fellow weblog readers.
We are trusting God to do it for us for the reason that, I can not strain this adequate, we can not do it alone.
We. Can’t. Do. This. Alone.
We by no means have been meant to.
God is not against us.
He is forever for us, His young children and His creations.
I stumbled more than the rock of Jesus the other day on the way to the football game and you guys, it was a stunning moment.
So, bear in mind that you have to trust the Lord.
You have to surrender everyday. You have to know that He is going to perform His will in your life. You have to stroll beside Him by way of every little thing and bear in mind He has His greatest intentions in thoughts for you.
He’s with you.
He knows what He’s carrying out and people, He’s going to maintain on carrying out it.
There is a stone on the way up the mountain that is desperately needing to be found by you.
God is that stone on the way to Mount Zion.
This stone is covered in lavish and flourishing greenery.
The green is symbolic of God’s flourishing promises and lavish plans you can only see 1 element of the green at a time as you stroll nonetheless, as you continue walking with the Lord, the green that was as soon as far away and blurry becomes close and clear.
God is on the way… not in the way.