Nowadays, I give you a present in the kind of a post written by guest blogger, Sam Renee Bartee. God connected Sam and I via Instagram exactly where I found her weblog and devotion to Christ. Reading her writing humbles and inspires me – I pray I reside my faith boldly and proclaim Him fearlessly the way Sam does. This is a post you want to study and share.
I hated myself – every single portion and portion down to the final cell.
I believed I was disgusting, repugnant, and despicable every single time I wrestled with similar sex attraction.
As my lust for the similar sex grew, my spirit waned.
I witnessed myself – somebody who was as soon as zealous to serve an almighty God, shrink into the shadows.
How could I worship figuring out what was in my thoughts?
How could I pray figuring out my flesh was sown into homosexuality?
I believed my really words had been offensive to God.
I was an outcast to His loved ones and His friendship was debatable.
How could a superior God accept somebody He labeled an abomination?
There was no location at God’s table for somebody like me – or so I believed.
In my planet, similar sex attraction usually became a synonym for shame.
When it came to my personal individual struggle, shame was such a familiar feeling I forbade myself from in search of a life outdoors of it.
I didn’t want to think in a life exactly where shame didn’t exist.
As a Christian, I discovered my sin was far more grandiose than other people.
I had no location at God’s table for the reason that my sin was who I was and not what I did.
I usually witnessed the church agree with this philosophy causing me to really feel even far more despicable.
Shame had a grip about my physique, and the enemy usually strangled me with it.
I lived in secret with my sin for several years, ashamed.
Who was I genuinely to God?
Was my shame telling the truth – that I am an outcast?
It took me awhile to recognize the truth of the Lord, but the reward and the freedom from shame had been worth it.
Turns out, I wasn’t serving the God I believed I was.
The God I serve believes in righteousness purchased by the shed blood of Jesus Christ – no condemnation.
For that reason, there is now no condemnation for these who are in Christ Jesus. Romans eight:1
In figuring out the truth about God, my shame dissolved.
As an alternative of swallowing the lies of the enemy, I dug into scripture.
Yes, God blatantly condemns homosexuality but He by no means identified me as the sin.
If there is no condemnation for these in Christ Jesus, why was I condemning myself in shame?
1 John 1:9 says If we confess our sin, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
If my God has cleansed me of all unrighteousness, then why was I ashamed of my similar sex attraction?
1 Corinthian six:9 speaks against these who practice homosexuality – separating the practice from the individual.
Shame happens when we confuse what we do with who we are.
I confused my similar sex attraction with my identity in Christ.
John 1:12 tells me these who think in His Name He offers the correct to come to be youngsters of God.
If I am a youngster of God, what is there to be despised?
How can a superior father despise His personal youngster?
The final conclusion is He does not.
Shame is a liar.
Sam Renee Bartee is a writer and devoted follower of Jesus Christ who is committed to shining the light of God’s truth and dispelling darkness. She is at the moment writing her initially book, Are You It? The Tag Game Involving Light and Sexual Darkness.
Sam blogs about the challenges of similar sex attraction on her web-site, http://www.thestrugggleblog.com She welcomes connection, comments and concerns via her weblog and e-mail, [email protected] You can also stick to Sam on Instagram and Facebook.